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Days 9 – 5 – Authenticity

By on July 28, 2012 in 40 Day Journey, 40 Day Journey - Healing

Almost 5 weeks ago, I started a 40-day healing journey.

This journey has been “spiritual turpentine”.

Stripping layers of stuff, removing what no longer serves me, saying goodbye, forgiving myself and others, and living an authentic life.

An authentic life, to me, means embracing people, events, hobbies, travel, food, etc., that have brought me joy over the past 33 years.

An authentic life also means letting go what I did not enjoy so I have room in my mind, heart and soul for new opportunities, lots of love and people.

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Day 10 – New View

By on July 26, 2012 in 40 Day Journey, 40 Day Journey - Healing

Today was life changing. Saw myself threw a different set of lenses. Many different views. Officially let go the woman I once knew. Saying Hello to a new lady. A new life.

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Day 11: Creating Daily Rituals

By on July 22, 2012 in 40 Day Journey, 40 Day Journey - Healing

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I received an email from my singing coach instructor about the schedule for the Fall. I cannot believe it is July and I am already thinking about September. I thought about what my “weekend” schedule will look like in the next few weeks. I am bringing back old loves like Saturday morning coffee and farmer market trips and adding new loves like painting. I am excited about what is to come. Living life my own way. Not worried about “dating” or whether or not someone is interested in me.

September – November
Friday Night: Netflix & themed dinners
Saturday: Coffee, trip to dog park, farmers market, brunch, singing lessons, leadership classes, and one of the following: date or meet-up event, time with friends, time alone to paint, or reading or who knows.
Sunday: church, brunch, serving the evening services, end the weekend doing something creative and listening to old radio shows.

My weekend schedule forces me to also bring back Thursday chore & prep meal night. One of my musts is to improve my quality of home life & having a night dedicated maintaining or improving my home will do that. I haven’t forgot about my business and that is moving along at the pace it is meant to move along. Nights for the business are Tues – Wed. My personal project, this blog and website is a daily effort and will be treated as such. Lunch hours at work will be dedicated to running chores and/or studying.

And my mornings . . . getting back into physical shape (MWF) and personal reading (TTH).

You are probably thinking . . . wow, for someone that is open to new things she is very uptight about her schedule. Yes, my schedule may seem uptight.

Having a schedule for things I have to do on an early basis provides me with the mental and emotional space for new people and experiences. Trust me, when my home life is a mess . . . my entire life is a mess.

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Day 12 – Looking Forward

By on July 21, 2012 in 40 Day Journey, 40 Day Journey - Healing

It dawned on me today that this journey will be coming to a close in 12 days. I have come a long way. My initial post was written by someone with a heart that was hurting and frustrated. This post is written is by someone that understands that things happen for a reason and the best. That situation was not right for me and where I am going will be. Right now, my mind is focused on what is to come. My faith has been my healer and I am moving forward. I am blessed to have a job I enjoy, a home, food and friends. I am going to Iceland in less than a month. And planning my future. The best is yet to come.

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Days 18 – 13 – Proactively Waiting

By on July 20, 2012 in 40 Day Journey, 40 Day Journey - Healing

The past few days have been quiet.

Focused on healing and eating well.

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Sitting still and listening.

Proactively waiting.

Content with where I am right now.

Giving up hope.

Having faith.

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Day 19 – Communication, Healing, Expression, Compassion, Love.

By on July 15, 2012 in 40 Day Journey, 40 Day Journey - Healing

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8 hours into today received an unexpected message.

And . . . . so it begins.

Open to communicating with whomever comes back in my life and use it as an opportunity for healing, rebuilding relationships, creating new relationships, saying goodbye or simply saying “no”.

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Days 24 – 20: Physical Healing

By on July 14, 2012 in 40 Day Journey, 40 Day Journey - Healing

“Those who think they have no time for exercise will sooner or later have to find time for illness.” ~Edward Stanley

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On Day 21, I took myself to the emergency room after experiencing pain for three days. I didn’t know what was going on, just that I wasn’t well and something was wrong. The health issue that is now part of my “health history” is a result of 4 months of staying up too late, not eating well, not exercising, drinking too much, not eating enough natural foods and putting the needs of everything else ahead of me. In about 9 days, I should be well. However, my lifestyle will be completely different going forward. Not sure if having this health issue occur during my 40 days of healing is a blessing, but the timing couldn’t have been better.

While my body is healing, I will be staying home and focusing on matters that need to be addressed. This includes home matters, health, relationships, etc.

 

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Days 27 – 25 – Discovering Myself

By on July 8, 2012 in 40 Day Journey, 40 Day Journey - Healing

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Today (Day 25), marks a little over two weeks that I decided to start this journey. I wasn’t sure what would occur and while there is 24 days to go, I am pleased at what has happened so far. There has definitely been a shift in my way of life since I decided to fully surrender and let go . . . since I decided to be the Brenda I know I can be . . . since I decided to enjoy my time, my space, my life . . . my way. I am going at my own pace. I am enjoying my evenings. I am eating better. I am taking better care of myself. I am painting. I am dancing. I am singing. I am praying. I am sharing. I am setting boundaries (and sticking to them). I am laughing. I am making new friends.  I am booking trips. I am wearing dresses. I am my feminine best. I am removing the things in life that no longer serve me. I am seeking adventures that are in alignment with my journey with God. Passionate wildflower is gone. Blown away into a past that has shaped (for good and bad) who I am. I am entering a new season. New petals, new colors, new desires, new visions, new look, a way of life that fully involves God, new loves, and new sounds. I am love. I am in love with myself. I am in love with what is to come.

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Day 28 – Making Space

By on July 5, 2012 in 40 Day Journey, 40 Day Journey - Healing

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In order to receive, there must be space. Is there space for the things you pray for? Is there space for the things you want? Maybe it is time to create space so what you want can enter your life.

While getting ready for work, I received a whisper to remove from my closet all of the clothing that no longer serves me or makes me feel good. What makes me feel good? A closet full of dresses and boxes of high heel pumps. In order for me to receive these dresses, there must be space. Tomorrow, I will be bagging up clothes that do not make me feel good and giving them away.

I will make space for what makes me great.  I will FINALLY throw away furniture and items within my living space and make space for the furniture I have always wanted. I will make space in my schedule to spend time with my friends and family. I will make space in my kitchen for healthy foods. I will make space on my patio to relax and plant a patio garden. I will make space to grow. I will make space for time to exercise. I will make space for time to brush and bond with Elijah.I will make space for art.I will make space to give and receive love.I will make space to receive God’s love. I will make space for time to read, pray and listen.

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Day 29 – Independence Day

By on July 4, 2012 in 40 Day Journey, 40 Day Journey - Healing

“Art is a portal of discovery, there is the opportunity to dive into the emotions, fears, colors, uggg and life itself…it is the gift behind a gate that seems to be something it is not! Art heals and guides us well!” – Cat Caracelo

A piece I am creating. A work in progress.

 

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